The chapter starts of with the statement "They won't let me in." page 344. This single statement shows the desperation that Amir is feeling concerning Sohrab's well being. Amir is unable to see Sohrab and this drives him crazy. It is at this point that Amir has a religious revelation. He states "....Baba was wrong, there is a God, there always had been..... This is the real house of God, this is where those who have lost God will find him," page 346. After stating this Amir begins praying; he does not remember all of the official prayer but he keeps repeating the verses that he knows. Amir's certain turn to faith shows that he truly does care about Sohrab and that he fears that he is finally being punished for the sins he committed so long ago. He feels as if his punishment might be that he will have to lose Sohrab. That happiness will be snatched away from him just when it's finally in his reach.
The doctor finally informs Amir that Sohrab will be alright. Amir completely breaks down in the doctors arms. When he is able to compose himself, the doctor takes him to see Sohrab. Instead of breaking down when he sees Sohrab, Amir goes numb. Amir sits with Sohrab until he drifts off and a nurse moves him to the lounge so that he can get some rest. During his fitful sleep, Amir dreams about Raymond Andrews. This is ironic due to the fact that Raymond Andrews child actually did commit suicide and die. After spending three days in the ICU, Amir returns to the hotel to try and get some rest. However, all he keeps thinking about is what occurred in the bathroom when Sohrab tried to kill himself. He just keeps replaying the image over and over again in his head.
When Amir goes back to visit Sohrab, Sohrab will not talk to him at first. Eventually Sohrab does talk to him and he tells him that he is just tired and that he wants his old life back. Amir asks "I ask for your bakhshesh, your forgiveness. Can you do that ? Can you forgive me? Can you believe me?...."Will you come with me?" page 355. Sohrab's only response is that he repeats that he is so tired. Amir remarks that this experience remind him of when he had tried to test Hassan's loyalty by asking if he would eat dirt if Amir had asked him to. He states that he feels as if this time the roles have been reversed, except this time Amir actually deserves the inquiry of his honor, when Hassan had not all those years ago. In the end Sohrab comes with Amir to America, however, he does not speak for the better part of a year. It was not until a festival when Amir engages Sohrab in a mini kite tournament that he gets some sort of reaction from Amir. When Amir and Sohrab are playing in the tournament, Amir notices life coming into Sohrab's eyes. Then when Amir cuts the kite Sohrab even smiles a little bit. Amir asks him if he wants him to run it for him and Sohrab nods. Amir's comment to him is "For you, a thousand times over," page 371. There is parallelism in this statement since this is exactly what Hassan had told Amir all those years ago.
The End
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